I would love to lay in bed at night and think…wow what a smooth day. Usually I am exhausted just from trying to get through the day. My life is good…I am happy but that does not come without work and it definitely does not come easy. There are times I smile and you can catch that twinkle in my eye…but sometimes that smile just hides the turmoil inside. I try to be genuine…I try to be true to myself. That is one of the down sides to being “high functioning”… everyone always expects you to be on top of it all. Sometimes though, I feel like I am at the bottom of life’s pile.